from 5 ottobre.
yesterday i sunbathed topless on the rocks, found a secret place in front of my apartment scaled a ladder down the side of the wall that keeps the island from falling into the sea, foot over foot down a tiny bit of rock on the side of the island to lay barebreasted in the warm october sun. i am terrified of swimming alone and petrified of submerged things in the water, and there are many of them... huge looming titanic rocks that cut your feet make your knees bleed and dance under the light of the seawater-filtered sun. i faced my fears and dove time and again into open sea, escaped into the open sea alone. opening my eyes under water is my very favorite thing in the entire world. i become a fish, i become beautiful, i turn back to sea my skin perfect brown illuminated neon under salty sun surrounded by diamonds bubbles my air the air of the world trapped dancing here with me in our new home. it is trippy as hell and continuously like dying. everything under water is circles of color, moving dancing fishes swim away from my hands. the rocks part and bare sand under sun is blinding turquoise.
something moves by me i cannot see but water swirls and i swim fast as i can roll breathless panting out of the sea.
the water is frigid but in a way that keeps you very warm. it is the freshest clean.
